it is a place that is not inscribed in the zodiac, but still exists in it. As if between the twelfth and first house, or between Scorpio and Sagittarius, there was suddenly a moldy pocket, a storehouse of nothingness, where no one wants to return, but everyone passes through it, sooner or later.
This is the place where Cancers lost their homes.
Shells are empty.
Memories are not yours, but alive.
Roots are torn off, but continue to grow.
On this island live forms devoid of content, and life that no longer belongs to the body. Sometimes the silence of the night comes there, as if the Universe itself had forgotten about this place. And in this silence the Hydra swarms.
This is the place between:
- kind and freedom,
- guilt and immortality,
- shell and shadow,
- loss and return.
Astrologically, it can be perceived as a zero point of memory, dead water inside the sign of Cancer, or as a mirror image of the 4th house, but not in the family – but in its ghost.
🌑 Map of the Entrance to the Island of the Homeless Cancer
Gate: Non-Death and Non-Birth
You enter not as a body, but as a fallen memory that still remembers the form, but cannot name it.
The threshold is a shell left in a forgotten dream. It is empty, but not abandoned.
To enter, you must:
- give up the role of the living and the dead,
- name a name that is not yours,
- and pass between the moment of loss and the moment of return.
🜄 Element: Bottomless water.
This is not a stream, not an ocean, not rain – this is water in which the structure dissolves, but the memory remains.
⛰ Archetype: Forgotten Larva
It is not Cancer, not Animal, not Child.
It is a form that was supposed to become something, but did not.
It crawls through the inner emptiness, looking not for a shell, but for the outline that was promised to it, and which was never created.
The archetype says:
“I do not know who I am. But I remember that I was supposed to be.”
“My life has not begun – and therefore cannot end.”
“I carry the form of a world that has forgotten that it was built.”
♋ Astrology: The Fourth House-Inversion
- The point between the 4th and 5th houses,
- between the family and the offspring,
- between the past that does not give a blessing,
- and the future that does not come.
If you draw an axis, it is as if the 4th house met the 12th in a mirror.
Not just a prison of the family, but a reflection of the family after oblivion.
Planet: Moon-under-the-Moon
This is not the Moon, but its imprint in someone else’s memory.
In places it is similar to Karma, but has no purpose or lesson.
It just is.
What does an island look like?
- Sand that never existed, but you remember how it creaks under the shell.
- The sea that comes from within.
- Fingers that can’t grasp, but still hold what isn’t there.
- Light that you can’t see, but you know exactly in which direction it was before.
- Living shells on which other people’s names crawl.
- An empty road that leads to a beginning that never existed.